'Till I collapse...
Over the past few years I have had the wonderful privilege to be living my dream. Well one of them *HUGE SMILE*. It's been an incredible journey to be apart of the musical theatre industry and especially being South African we have had the opportunity to travel with work performing in shows that are of an international quality because our industry at home produces international quality performers to carry these big shows. The odds have definitely been in our favour. We have seen shows like Jersey Boys, Dream Girls, Singin' In The Rain, Priscilla Queen Of The Desert and more of late on our stages with all South African casts. It's incredible and speaks volumes about our industry at the bottom end of Africa. Yet there is something however that has been on my mind and in my heart for a very long time and perhaps it might shed some light onto 'The Dream'. Or at least from my point of view and just something to think about. Which I honestly hadn't expected. When we are young we have these idealistic imaginings of how our lives are going to turn out, often having our own version of a Hollywood ending. Some dream of saving lives, falling in love, getting married, touring the world or performing on Broadway. IF you are living your dream how could you ever have bad days? Why would you ever feel lonely? What could be better? Why would you complain about anything?
Ed Sheeran sang it the best in one of his most recent songs ERASER,
"...And Ain't nobody want to see you down in the dumps
Because you're living your dream and this should be fun
Please know that I'm not trying to preach like I'm reverend run
I beg you don't be disappointed with the man I've become."
Life on the road, wanting to discover the world, travelling, it's all really incredible please don't get me wrong but by wanting to see the world and live your dreams the sacrifices are immense. Everyone looks at the dream chasers and see mostly the good that has come from it, which seems fair because it's perhaps what some have not had the courage to do. It's inspiring. But on the other hand, is the grass really greener on the other side? The short answer is no, its just different.
I often need to remind myself of a human flaw/strength that is universal. I have seen it time and time again and having the opportunity to see a lot of the world and spend a fair amount of time in different cities experiencing different cultures and ways of living. I have come to notice one fundamental thing about all human beings, which is something you won't really understand unless you allow yourself to understand it. We are all the same. I'm sure you have heard this countless times, for good reason I feel because it's true. We all have the same; fears, excitements, desires, habits, irritations to name just a few. Yes they may be flavoured in a different way but at the end of the day it all tastes the same; the disappointment, the experiences, what we need to learn to get by and succeed in this crazy world, all of it. Everyone is doing their best. Our flaw/strength that I need to be reminded of... We - the human race - are never satisfied... Ever. And we are being encouraged everyday to grow this flaw as its seen as a strength. Mostly. Well it makes sense I think. It's how we have evolved and so quickly. We sit on a bench which is uncomfortable, we want more comfort therefore we create or buy a new couch, a comfier couch. That comfier couch becomes uncomfortable and we create or buy a new one and so on.
'This cell phone is great but that one is cooler.
This dream is awesome but look how great that one is.
I wish my relationship was like theirs is... on Facebook.
And when I get that (sigh) my life will be perfect too.'
Nope there it is again we are unsatisfied.
Constantly craving to be stationary yet constantly attracted to move forward.
'Move on. Let it go. Let it happen naturally. Align your chi.'
It's always on my mind and it's a constant battle within.
I often marvel in the facts of what I have achieved and accomplished and where I have traveled to and/or performed.
The determination of 'what's next?' is so addictive that we make a huge mistake over and over again. We get bored with stationary, with nose forward leaning towards moving forward. Like a drooling dog at a huge chunk of steak. We are all addicted. I am addicted. My addiction has caused many consequences as all other addictions do too. To thrive is not only a prerequisite of today's day and age, if you aren't thriving or you are perceived to be stagnating you are almost ostracised.
We all know where to start... at the beginning...
Does anyone know where to stop? Will we ever stop?
I don't think we can, as a race we can't do it. It goes against our fundamental need to survive. To be better is to survive.
Rip it up Eminem and spit the truth!
From the film Real Steal
Eminem provides the title track.
Here are the lyrics if you would like to read it and feed the motivation monster addiction inside of you.